Okies. So, I decided that I shall be fine. In order for life to continue, I have to keep ignoring this and pretend that everything's peaches and cream.
*slaps herself*
see, I'm fine already. no worries. =)
On a lighter note, MY COUSIN-IN-LAW GAVE BIRTH!!!!!! I'm an aunt again!!! boy am I old. YAYS!!!! I wanna go see my niece!!!!
Coming up over the Pacific and
You might think I'm losing my mind,
But I will shy away from the specifics...
'cause I don't want you to know where I am
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
I talk to absolutely no one.
Couldn't keep to myself enough.
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up.
I heard the reverberating footsteps
Synching up to the beating of my heart,
And I was positive that unless I got myself together,
I would watch me fall apart.
And I can't let that happen again
'cause then you'll see my heart
In the saddest state it's ever been.
This is no place to try and live my life.
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.
Stop right there. That's exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it's the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.
I'm sorry for the person I became.
I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been
And who I am will take the second chance you gave me.
Who I am hates who I've been
'cause who I've been only ever made me...
So sorry for the person I became.
So sorry that it took so long for me to change.
I'm ready to be sure I never become that way again
'cause who I am hates who I've been.
Who I am hates who I've been.
Got a joke?? Tell me. I desperately need to laugh.. real hard.
Avalanche is sullen and too thin
She starves herself to rid herself of sin
And the kick is so divine when she sees bones beneath her skin
And she says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Chris is all dressed up and acting coy
Painted like a brand new Christmas toy
He's trying to figure out if he's a girl or he's a boy
He says:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Doodle takes dad's scissors to her skin
And when she does relief comes setting in
While she hides the scars she's making underneath her pretty clothes
She sings:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Therapy is Speedie's brand new drug
Dancing with the devil's past has never been too fun
It's better off than trying to take a bullet from a gun
And she cries:
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
JT gets all fucked up in some karaoke bar
After two drinks he's a loser after three drinks he's a star
Getting all nostalgic as he sings "I Will Survive"
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
Hey baby can you bleed like me?
C'mon baby can you bleed like me?
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Just try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
Try to comprehend that which you'll never comprehend
You should see my scars
You should see my scars
YAYS. The weekend was fun!!! =)
okay, so on Saturday morning, i woke up super early to study. but guess what? hardly anything was done.. I'm losing my concentration.. this is bad. Stacy and I decided to go to the blood bank since it had been 3 months since our last donation. so we decideed to meet at 2.30 at the outram mrt station. I rushed all the way there only to find that I was the earliest, then I got a call from erwin, who was LOST. He totally scared me, we were like on the phone for 10 mins trying to figure out which part of S'pore he was in. Apparently he was at the right station but he walked the wrong way and ended up somewhere else. Faints. made me panic and run around like some mad woman for nothing. then stacy showed up, half an hour late and the both of us went to donate blood, with erwin and mel tagging along!!!! so then, we went to town and met up with hongkit, yuanyu, luthfi and desmond and we rushed to school for the band concert cause we were like super duper duper late. THE CONCERT WAS GOOD. JADEY, I'M SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!!!!! *grinz* and i'm so tired now cause i slept at 3, having reached home at 2.30 in the morning. I didn't do anything terrible ok, I went for a movie.
I'm officially sleep deprived now, cause our class had CIP today from 9 to 1. It was quite good actually, we went to Raffles Place to help sell daffodils for the Cancer Society. I must say, Jadey and I are gooooood. we sold finished by 11.. see how efficient we are? hahahahah. met really interesting ppl, many australians, a korean couple (and all 3 of us had no idea what the other was saying), an ex-CJCian (who donated $10 but didn't want the flower) and a nice american (who bought 2 flowers --- 'one for me, one for you!!') good weekend, hope the following week is gonna be a good one. I really need to concentrate better in school.
No Matter What, This Seems Real To Me.
(/) Slept all night in a bed with a person of the opposite sex
(don't think dirty)
(/) Slept all night in a bed with a person of the same sex
(again, don't think dirty)
(/) Slept for more than 12 hours
(I'm a pig =P)
( ) Missed a week of school or more
( ) Put chapstick on more than 5 times in an hour
(/) Kissed more than one person in a day
(/) Kissed more than two people in a day
(/) Created a myspace survey
(I was bored okay)
(/) Eaten a worm
(/) Jumped on a trampoline
(ubber fun!!!! =D)
( ) Ridden a unicycle
(I can't balance for nuts)
(/) Done something special for someone else
( ) Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant
(anyone want to go try and steal one with me??)
( ) Paid more than $50 for food at a fast food restaurant
(are u nuts??)
(/) Got caught for cheating
(/) Talked on the phone while going to the bathroom
(/) Brushed your teeth while on the phone
(I don't recommend it)
( ) Worked in fast food place
(/) Written a poem
(/) Randomly called people out of a phone book
(/) Been on a yacht
( ) Put bananas in your cheerios
(/) Lied to a friend to make them feel better
( ) Dated someone more than 2 years older than you
( ) Eaten frosting out of the original container
( ) Had a dream about a myspace friend
(///// x100) Fallen in public
(I'm known to be super clumsy. So I've fallen lots of times. Trust me.)
( ) Had your pants rip
( ) Recently had a PB&J sandwich
(/) Met your principals parents
(does my sec sch principal's parent count?)
( ) Killed an animal
(no, course not.)
(/) Been prescribed 3 or more medications by a doctor
(/) Wished you were an only child
(many many times, but i'm still glad i have my bro)
( ) Used your friends razor with out them knowing
(that's just sick)
(/) Been unproud of a decision you made
(/) Worked for a family member
(/) Been told you were too young
( ) Made out in a car
( ) Kissed a friend, then their best friend.
(What kind of person do you think I am?)
(/) Been to a concert
(/) Gotten away with a lie to your parents
(HA. I'm an expert. Gosh, I'm such a terrible child… my poor parents)
( ) Been dumped the night of a dance and left with out a date
( ) Been cheated on
( ) Gone out with a person one of your parents set you up with
(HAHA. My mum's distant relative tried to set me up with her son once. Like eww, no...NO)
(/) Hate to admit you are wrong
(/) Ridden on a shopping cart
(SUPER FUN)
(/) danced in a Wal Mart
(Only once, with my cousin.For some reason, we got weird stares. Haha)
( ) Went into a Wal mart in socks without shoes
(/) Worn a tiara
(which girl hasn't played dress up at least once in her life?)
( ) Been in a play
(/) Gone to church more than 2 times in a week
( ) Copied more than 30 CD's in a day
( ) Made a movie
( ) Dressed gothic
(/) Worn 5 or more layers of clothing
(it was snowing)
(/) Had a stalker
(scary)
( ) Been to California
( ) Lived on a house boat
(/) Swam in clear blue water
(/) Sat in a doctors office with a friend
(/) Ran across 6 lanes of traffic
(AHAAH. I'm sorrie, I'm a real terrible pedestrian)
(/) Made fish lips
( ) Hit on a waitress/waiter
(/) Taken pictures with a stranger
( ) Been to Busch Gardens
( ) Stayed in a hotel room with 3 other school mates
(/) Made a public speech
( ) Been on cable television
(/) Choreographed a dance
(does a really simple dance count? but i had help, i needed it.'haha)
(/) Felt used
(/) Made a smoothie or milkshake
(OREO MILSHAKE!!!)
(/) Had fun at work
(/) Watched Desperate Housewives
(this show rocks...it's entertainment)
(/) Watched a movie so often you could quote every word
(/) Listened to an NSYNC or Backstreet Boys CD
(/) Kept something from a past relationship
(/) Given someone else flowers
(SUNFLOWERS!!!!)
( ) Taken a foreign language
(I don't think I'm qualified enough to say that I know how to speak bahasa well)
(/) Gotten to school at 6:15 in the morning
went out with my dear hhp today!!!! yays!! we finally met after what.. 3 weeks? FUN. saw lots of nice tees and stuff. we even got a bracelet stuck and had a super hard time trying to get it off. definately must go out again. *grinz*
so today was quite a random day. a huge bee flew into our classroom during break, jade and yuanyu scrambled out and were like screaming. while fei, chris and i were still happily sitting in the classroom. but at first, it flew towards me, directly at me.. and so yuanyu screamed and i panicked and ran... towards jade. but then jade suddenly turned and ran towards me (apparently the bee made a detour and was at jade's end), so to prevent any collison, i turned to run in the same direction as her.. and she pulled me down. so we were happily playing hide-and-go-seek with the bee under deborah's table. until i realized how ridiculous we looked.
confused? so am i. ehee.
jade's pms-ing. fei's going bonkers, dribbling the soccer ball down the corridor till the toilet. ziwei's secret is finally out *winks*. joshua & chris can do superduper amazing things with their gc. jasmine's turning more and more into a pervert. suemaine's disappearing into thin air. i'm getting mixed up between tausar pao and lengyong pao. apparently i need 3 ppl to walk me home --- desmond, stacy and luthfi ---- though i don't want them to. there's chem, and possibly econs, test tmr. NAFA's tmr and i have another dental tmr. and there are giant spiders on the LT ceiling.
life just doesn't get any better than this.
just came home from dental extraction, all the blood!!!!! haha, my teeth hurt now... so far, i've had 4 teeth extracted. man, i can't wait to get my braces out. my parents flew off this morning to pay respects to some distant relative who just passed away. so it's just my brother and i now. one word: PARTY!!!! hahaah. but first, i need some painkillers. i can feel the anesthesia wearing off.
This week has been so hectic!!! All the long days and late nights have caused so many ppl to fall sick.. oh dear.. TAKE CARE EVERYBODY!!! I've been nodding off during lessons for 2 days, and i almost ran into the pole during trng, shocking luthfi and wanching. ahaha. what a terrible student. Anyways, I slept for 17 hrs straight!! can u imagine?! oh my gosh, i must have been realllyyy tired. fei's jealous that i slept for so long... i didn't even wake up at all... I MISSED LESSONS!!!! AND CANOEING!!!! arrrrr... oh no. i'm super sad now. =(
Fei: Take care feifei!!!! please go see a doctor before you pass the flu bug to even more ppl!! hee.
jadey: HAVE FUN AT BAND CAMP DEARIE!!!! take care of yourself pleaseeee!!!!!
yuanyu: cheer up kies?!! RAH LOVES YOUUU!!!!! don't worry =)
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO SHEMUEL & BENJAMIN (my emo provider)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm currently so in love with this song. =)
I woke up early in my hotel room
Wait for my alarm to go
I think about the things I've gotta do
Damn, my mind is gonna blow
I'm freaking out, about what's ahead
Maybe I'll just stay in bed
'Cause it's no fun to be the one going out of my head
So I tell it to myself again
You're looking for something you can't find
If you give it up, you'll lose your mind
There's always something in your way
What can you say?
You're gonna have good day
I quit my job about a week ago
Told 'em that I need some time
Now I'm going strong on Lexapro
Doctor says I'm doing fine
I'm thinking out about what's ahead
Maybe I'll just stay in bed
'Cause it's no fun to be the one going out of my head
So I tell it to myself again
You're looking for something you can't find
If you give it up, you'll lose your mind
There's always something in your way
What can you say?
You're gonna have a good day
Just when I thought I couldn't lose
I realized that it's the only thing I knew
I'm freaking out about what's ahead
Maybe I'll just stay in bed
'Cause it's no fun to be the one going out of my head
So I tell it to myself
Tell it to myself
Tell it to myself again
You're looking for something you can't find
If you give it up, you'll lose your mind
There's always something in your way
You're looking for something you can't find
If you give it up, you'll lose your mind
There's always something in your way
What can you say?
You're looking for something you can't find
If you give it up, you'll lose your mind
There's always something in your way
What can you say?
You're gonna have a good day
You're gonna have a good day
You're gonna have a good day
Yesterday wasn't a really good day. I wasn't really feeling that well and so many retarded stuff was going on that put ppl in a bad mood.
CJ road relay yesterday!!! but then it started to pour and they decided to postpone it.. stupid rain.
we rushed back to stc for colours award and so many teachers kept critisizing our attire. bleahs to them. ---- hiyo, skirt too short!!! why is your hair still soooo short?! go tidy up your hair. look at alllll your blouses... so messy!!! go tuck them in!!! what's wrong with your tie?!!!---- neh nehs. I know they mean well but still.. Stacy and I decided if ms chen picked on us one more time, we wld leave. I can't believe that i tucked in my blouse (for the first time) at my secondary sch, and not at my college. I'm such a terrible student. But, it was super great to see some of my juniors and to catch up with my teachers!!! I miss laoshi, mrs shankar, mrs leong etc!!!! they kept asking us to come back and visit them more often. and maybe we will. =)
THANKS FOR ALL THE PREZZIES!!!! =)
1T29, 1T16, canoeists, my haopengyous: I LOVE the watermelon!!!! It's superduper cute!!!!
P.S. Jadey, Desmond, Stacy, Erwin: STOP SQUISHING IT!!!!!!!!!
momo : Thanks for the card!!! It's super pretty!!!! i love it.
1T16: Thanks for the cakes u guys!!! you really shouldn't have. it was really sweet!! =)
Nat & Elvie: OI!!!! you guys were the FIRST juniors to wish me!!! I MISS YOU!!!! =)
Shawn, Kenneth & Valerie: HAPPY (belated or early) BIRTHDAY TO YOU GUYS TOO!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaah
As we lay here together I feel your heart beat with mine
With time standing still, here is where we've always been
Well there goes the world and we're right in the middle again
- In The Middle, Theory Of A Deadman
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Karen
Karmila
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Kenny
LayCheng
Melissa
Momoko
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